Last month I wrote that the goals for February were going to be “a major step up in challenge compared to the previous 3 months”. I was both excited and apprehensive at the thought of making 4 separate goals to be completed, each a substantial step up from last month. To simultaneously improve across mental health with meditation, physical health with exercise, chores with laundry, and self development with both job searching and coding felt like an enormous task.

I have succeeded.

In January I completed 212 significant actions (+30 from Dec), and in February I completed 259, a +47 increase from January. This is a dramatic increase from November, of over 100 actions per month. The fact that actions per day continues to improve each month by substantial amounts suggests I have not yet reached my theorized “maximum” activity output that I have been searching for with this increasing goal methodology.

I feel negatively still. I do not feel a sense of triumph, even though I can intellectually declare myself triumphant. Perhaps this does not diminish my success, but I find myself desiring a correspondence between feeling and outcome that this success has not brought. Its strange, because when I feel negatively, I can draw a correlation to less activity, and when I feel positively, I can draw a correlation to more activity, but today I feel negatively and have done more activity.

I think the negative feelings began to build in the 2nd week of my efforts. There is still a piece missing, it seems, hidden among the noise of the victory. Perhaps this is an internal piece, that will develop with time in a similar way other mental reframing has.

I believe that I understand military strategy in a clearer way than I do my own mental landscape. From a strategic perspective, after a decisive advance is made, and there is uncertainty or confusing intel being received, it is a good idea to dig in and hold the ground that was gained until the next maneuver becomes clear. Therefore I will attempt the same for myself. I believe the goals for March should mainly overlap with my goals for February, with perhaps one additional goal being to improve my diet in a meaningful way.

The following goals will be set for March:
1. Continue searching for jobs and submitting applications. I submitted 54 applications in February. I want to submit the same amount in March. This works out to 14 applications per week. I will continue to focus plan alongside the applications as well. I should save this activity for days when I take Vyvanse.

2. Continue to practice coding and become more familiar with it. I developed several DnD tools in February, and I want to work on a Dnd Travel management project in March. I need to play more with coding.

3. Construct two healthy breakfasts, one healthy lunch, and one healthy dinner that can be prepped and consumed from the fridge. Keep these meals stocked in mason jars through the week.

4. Continue to meditate regularly. I want to meditate 20x in March.

5. Continue walking after job searching. I want to exercise at least 3x per week. I do not need to call and speak to anyone while I walk.

6. Continue laundry 3x a week.

7. Maintain the current difficulty classifications in March. Attempt to reel in the Very Hard things to at least once per week.

8. Write down gratitudes every evening. I feel that continuing to be grateful will help me develop more faith in myself. When I record my gratitudes, I should also try to assign a Mood and a Trigger to every positive (+) or negative (-) mood tracker result for the day.

9. Brush my teeth every morning.