I’ve been in a good mood since the 16th. Between a small promotion at work and feeling more in control of myself lately, I think a lot of the usual self-critical factors have been diminished for the time being. The 30th is approaching and with it the next step on the long journey to the more ideal, software-focused job that I’ve been on for the past 2.5 years. In addition to positivity however, I detect an underlying straining (or striving, as the Buddhists would put it) to do well. This, I think, is a net positive, because it indicates that my subconscious mind is not interested in going back to the way things were before. I feel pride in myself in a way that I haven’t in ages, the pride of working hard and pushing my limits, and sustaining that tempo is necessary for the immediate future.

Something I do want to explore, however, is whether I’m paying attention to rest AND relaxation properly. Lately I’ve been prioritizing getting good sleep, and I think that has a lot to do with maintaining the rigorous pace I’ve been operating at without crashing. I read at work, which helps to distract and ease tension. At home, I’ve been planning & drafting some DND stuff, which is both engaging and also relaxing. I’ve been trying to stretch briefly and frequently, to physically relax the body. Today is my first full day off after a tough week, and I want to focus on taking the time to relax both the body and mind, especially considering we have a pair of heavy socialization days up next followed by a return to work on Tuesday. Today I’d like to mow the lawn and go shopping, but besides that stay in a posture of rest & relaxation. What could that look like?

This morning I could brush my teeth and read for a while, with perhaps also a meditation session and some written gratitudes early on. Then I could make breakfast for my wife and myself (trial run for tomorrow morning when I’ll make the same thing for guests). After that, I’ll go shopping, mow the lawn, and take a shower after. Get dressed in some comfortable clothes and spend the rest of the day freely. My wife wants to watch a video game playthrough series we’ve been enjoying. That would be fun. And then in the evening, if I have the energy, I can ask for a primer on the household credit cards, debt, budgeting, & recurring expenses. Perhaps a mug of hot cocoa as well.

Seems like a pretty restful & relaxing day.