Yesterday was, not quite challenging, but overwhelming. I felt a sort of tension of body and mind which seemed to compel me to act against it, or to relieve it. Today I feel vulnerable and in need of something, though I’m not sure what. I was able to spend the evening after work in bed last night, and got plenty of sleep. This was good, and I think that the evening in bed was restful, because I’m feeling calmer today.

I can recall a few times yesterday catching a glimpse of myself in a state of tension, and purposefully relaxing muscles in my neck and torso. I recall it felt unwise to do for some reason, but that relaxing in this way helped to ease the tension I was feeling.

Today I may take some time to meditate later. I have a game scheduled immediately after I get home that I was looking forward to, but today am feeling a bit concerned about. I am comforted by the fact that it will end well before the time I need to get to bed.

This morning one of my more experienced coworkers mentioned that they disliked nearly everyone here except for me, because “I have potential”. I asked “what potential” and he seemed taken aback, taking a moment to consider before replying that it was more of an intuitive thing, and he didn’t know what specifically he was referring to. I’m inclined to believe he was telling the truth, and took it as a compliment.