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I feel it like a weighted comfort descending on me, or perhaps the lifting of a great toil. I have just spent my lunch hour with a mindwave meditation, followed by reading a wonderfully exciting section from the Once & Future King. Now I have suddenly returned to a state of great peace. How wonderful…

What does my anxiety feel like? Currently it feels like a pressure, or a fizzing perhaps. Maybe I’m feeling my nervous system activating. It feels fluttery. The experience of anxiety is indicative of unprocessed mental stimuli that is disturbing my body. I have recorded as many stressors as I could reasonably think of today, and…

June: 263July: 315 Last month was my birthday month, a month which has been giving me lots of anxiety the last few years. It’ll probably be a few years more before I unpack why. In the meantime, I have a new job at a Tech Support center which I’ve been enjoying tremendously. Being able to…

A lot has happened recently. I quit my previous job and started a new one, hopefully more suited for my skills. My normal routines were significantly disrupted during this time, and I’m still in the process of acclimating to the routines surrounding the new job. My meditation peaked during May, then has declined in June…

May: 344June: 263 A lot has happened, recently. We’re doing well emotionally, and having lots of fun times with friend (but there’s a but coming) but also feeling negatively as well. There’s plenty to feel negative about, and negative feelings are ok to feel. Feeling negatively isn’t bad when negative things are happening. Feeling negatively…

I’ve been feeling great about myself this month. There’s been a lot of positive mood recorded, especially towards the last half of the month. The records speak for themselves: 2024November: 130December: 182 2025January: 212February: 259March: 255April: 253May: 344 Since November, daily activities have seen a 260% increase. I’m VERY pleased that I’ve been able not…

Anger has been a large part of my experience lately. Despite the overall positive mood, I feel mildly worried, bitter, frustrated, and distant from my partner. Meditation is something I’d like to bring closer to an everyday, teeth-brushing level of regularity, and I think that’s achievable. I’ve noticed mindfulness actively helping over the last few…

I’ve been in a good mood since the 16th. Between a small promotion at work and feeling more in control of myself lately, I think a lot of the usual self-critical factors have been diminished for the time being. The 30th is approaching and with it the next step on the long journey to the…

The past few months have demonstrated a competency in setting, adjusting, and achieving desirable goals in a month-to-month context, building to reach a longer term goal (getting a job). Now that a better job perhaps on the horizon, I’d like to repeat this process, with the next few months being oriented towards learning about, acquiring…

Starting the new job has been a major adjustment. The past few weeks have been filled with job related stuff, and job related thoughts with it. In April every activity category was reduced, so I guess we’ve finally found that wall I’ve been longing to hit for a while now. With that in mind, I’d…