Last week I hit 11 lbs over my preferred weight, so far made it back down to 7 lbs over the last few days. Been very attentive to food choices and portion control. Also I’ve been jogging a couple times a week, and its feeling very pleasant to be exercising again. My sleep hygiene has been a focus lately as well. Last month felt like a real struggle (even though I still made it to work on time) and this month I’m returning to the task of getting to work early enough to have zero morning/commute stress.

My wife is recovering well from her surgery, she just put her two weeks in at work and we will be starting a family soon. Its almost surreal but we’ve been discussing it so much that there’s not a lot of unreality to it, this process will be happening. There is minor stress about becoming the only breadwinner for a while, but we have the savings to sustain her sabbatical and plans for her to return to part-time work after that. I’ve been sending out applications at a reliable pace, and so far we’ve had several bites and a few interviews scheduled, so I’m feeling optimistic on that end.

Relationship with the parents continues to be distant. I’m feeling separated from them, but not unpleasantly so. The unpleasant feelings are when I’m in the same room as them. There’s a mild psychic pain between the lines of our conversations that I’m not sure what to do with. Perhaps its merely the consequence of the lives we’ve decided for ourselves and each other.

All this is occurring in the shadow of some overwhelm that occurred 2 weeks ago. We had a very busy week at work (update dropped, broke a bunch of stuff), and then also had a difficult series of meetings about seeking a T2 promotion (basically told I don’t currently have the experience, but to keep trying). I’m still trying. Last week we did a bit of vaping and had some edibles, but this week we’ve stopped without issue so far, besides a light headache yesterday.

It feels good to work hard, topple over gently, and get back up again. I feel stronger and more capable than I used to be. The turnaround was quick and I’ve reformed my routines in good order. We’ll see what the next few weeks bring.