In May we completed 442 activities, and were prioritizing weight loss and career development (via CompTIA and job applications).
In June we completed 484 activities, have gone up 2 more pounds on average compared to May, and also passed the CompTIA A+ Core 1 Exam. I’m immensely proud of being able to complete such a stressful experience first try, and I’m glad that I set this goal and made reasonable accommodation for myself along the way. Health-wise, I would like to level out this month, and would be very happy if I could get the average weight to remain stable this month instead of increasing. However, I can also recognize that weight has increased reliably each of the last 6 months, and even if I only am able to slow the avg increase to 1 pound, that would be progress towards stabilization.
On Chores, we’ve kept things stable, and the environment has felt very livable recently. I don’t see tons of stuff overflowing for me to do, laundry and dishes are being handled reliably, and I do feel like a large enough effort is being allocated to chores that we’ve stabilized at about 100 activities a month (3 or so a day).
Meanwhile on Cleaning, I feel like I’ve hardly touched anything. Tidying up loose articles and putting them back where they belong is the lion’s share of the work. I did recently put together a cleaning kit, and perhaps I will be able to use it more frequently in places like the kitchen and the bathroom. I’d like to clean the shower drain more often, and I’d like for spaces to be tidy AND clean, if possible. But that remains to be seen. Also it would be nice to clean my CPAP equipment more frequently, as I’ve been noticing a tickle in my nose and throat that could be early signs of infection. Could also be anxiety.
On the Mental Health front, activities have doubled since last month. Going by my previous assertions that mental health activities declining is probably a sign of less effort needed to maintain positive mental health, I could be concerned about this. However, when I look at the majority of the increases, I see Journaling and Focus Planning, plus the previous month was a decline from the month before, so really could be just noise.
Physical Health remains stable, although I have been continuing to gain weight, I feel like I did a better job keeping a healthy diet this month. Healthy dinners will be important for this upcoming month, I think if I can find good healthy dinners to eat it will help me stabilize my weight. Exercise is progressing well, I think I have a good flow of jogging, pushups, and stretching. In the future would like to incorporate pullups and abs as well, but not an urgent goal. Sleep hygiene feels well improved, and I attribute a lot of my work success to my sleep targeting, which then helps me get up and have a good morning routine the following day.
On Self Development, we’ve made big progress this month by maintaining our progress in other areas while ALSO pulling through large amounts of school stress. I’m very impressed with myself on this, anxiety and internal worries were strong that I would fail or not be able to persist in my preparations, but I was able to overcome those fears and pass my test on the first try. This is a huge success for me, it bodes well for my ability to learn and marks a triumphant progression in my approach to school-related things post-autism diagnosis.
The Long-Term Planning has been really working well, and I feel great being able to visualize my progress over time in a way that I ordinarily would never recall so clearly. I can see the ways that my efforts build, react to fatigue, and contribute to success, and I’m learning more about what goals are important, and where I desire to make progress. I’m assigning a housework goal this cycle, to unclog the sink, which I think will build upon a previous goal to grout the countertops and compared to the most recent quarterly goal of passing my exam now feels very achievable. I’m excited to learn how it goes.
Socially, I’ve found lots of uncertainty and anxiety present. There are lots of thoughts about my brother, different friends I want to be spending time with, my parents, and my cousins. I feel that a major task of my 30s will be understanding that I am not a perfect person, I can be myself and learn to be happy with the results around me.
In my career, I’ve maintained good performance from last month to this month, and I’d like to keep things steady for next month. Taking over as breadwinner for my household has brought plenty of challenge, and has also changed my previous approach to handling work stress. I don’t get to take as many breathers and request days off when I’m not feeling well. I feel motivated to take the next step in my career soon, and I hope that the job that I find next for myself will be less call-taking, and more open time to take things at my own pace while learning more about technology.
Halfway through this year, my mood appears to still be improving compared with 2025. I’m curious what the upper limit will be, and what understanding the end of this year into next year will bring. As of writing this, I feel much less sad on a day to day basis, but anxiety and frustration are very high. Physical anxiety especially feels very high on a day to day basis lately. Not sure if this is related to being 2 months since using THC, but its something to keep an eye on.
I’m very excited for early July, when I’ll be going with my wife for imagery and audio of the baby.
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