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Since Dec 24th I’ve had mostly low mood, interspersed with a spike into a good mood while traveling for business. I mark the following sources of anxiety: conflict with my partner, leading to stress about the integrity of our relationship. anxiety regarding searching for jobs in the time before my new employment begins. anxiety over…

Imagine a bow, drawn back and nocked with an arrow. That’s how life feels sometimes. You’re pulled farther and farther back, the potential energy building until you nearly can’t take it anymore, only to launch forwards like an arrow. Moments of tension and flight pair back and forth, as you pass in fits and starts…

Happy New Year!Last month, significant activity was as follows: November 2024: ~130 significant actionsWeek 1: 22 actionsWeek 2: 22 actionsWeek 3: 44 actionsWeek 4: 37 actions The average activity level was around 4 per day. Daily actions peaked around 10-11 (4 times), and bottomed out at 0-1 (6 times). My monthly goals for December were:…

Since my last journal things have continued to feel bleary. I had a week of feeling positively in mid December, but most of the time before and afterwards I’ve been treading water. I can congratulate myself on an especially productive few weeks of December, and even though I anticipated bringing the week of the Holidays…

This month I’ve been really focusing on tracking my daily activities. Here at the midpoint I’d like to take a look at how I’m feeling, potential mood factors, and how the tracking system is working so far. I had my first good day of the month yesterday. I spent the day with friends helping one…

Modern humans have existed for the last 300,000 years, the vast majority before the last 2,000 years. Imagine a human from the dawn of time came to speak with you, and asked what they should be doing in order to live a good life? What a staggeringly difficult question, for would this human be more…

A problem I find myself stumped with often is that simple things feel hard to do. Very well, such is life. Last month I tried to write down all the things I found challenging, and then totaled up these “significant actions” to get an idea of my activity on a daily, weekly, and monthly basis.…

For my Body, I am grateful for: carrying me on my two mile walks this week returning to a more regular sleep schedule For my Mind, I am grateful for: continuing to find new and interesting things to help my mental health recording my thoughts in journal entries communicating well with uncle and father in…

Things have been challenging lately. I’ve had a lot of change and upheaval of my priorities recently, and for the last two months there has been mindlessness. Now I find myself desiring a reorientation towards the mindful principles that brought so much peace several months ago. On July 20th, I wrote the following: When I…

A blank page is devoid of anything. A scattered mind is filled with mindlessness. Art is beautiful for the choices of the artist, and each choice is an acceptance of restriction, an acknowledgement of the choice to be made and the sacrifice of the potential. Life feels much the same sometimes. As the painter paints,…